Bus Ride

Ok - we have had a lot going on in the past few weeks, but I had no idea how hard it would be to put my child on the yellow school bus for the first time.  Jason and I both took him to school the first day.  Then, Jason began taking him to school on his way to work in the mornings.  We had watched the bus pass our house and Carson had asked when he could ride it, but I thought we would put that off for awhile.  Well, Friday Jason had a meeting at 7:30 a.m. and I didn't want to get the babies up so early (I don't have to leave until 8:30 a.m. with them), so we decided to try out the bus.  I walked Carson down the street (only 2 driveways down) and we waited.  He was excited, but my anxiety grew.  When the bus got there, I introduced Carson to the bus driver.  Before I knew it, he was on the bus and blended in with all the other kids.  It happened so fast!  I felt like I didn't even get to say goodbye.  I wanted to stand in the front of the bus and yell, "I love you Carson, have a great day!", but I knew better.  The bus drove off and the tears began to flow.  I called Jason as I walked back to our front door and sobbed.  Was he going to be okay?  Would he know where to go?  Would he meet new friends?  All day long I thought of him.  I talked myself out of calling the school to make sure he got there, because I knew they would call me if he didn't show.  Finally, at the end of the day, I picked him up from Rainbow Station and was able to ask about THE bus ride.  He was all smiles!  It turns out, his friend that sits beside him in class was on the bus and they found each other quickly.  He lived!  And I did too!  I guess Carson will be riding the bus from now on, but hopefully it will get easier and easier on mom!!